Prom was extremely fun and made me sooo happy. I can't even tell you everything, but just know that it was one of the best things that could have happened.
My hair was absolutely beautiful, if I do say so myself. I got it done at the Ultimate, one of the most pampering salons there is. Once I get my pictures up, I'll be sure to add a link to them. Dinner was delicious and entertaining, as Ginza of Tokyo always is. The actual dance was fun. I kept seeing a certain couple, even though I tried to avoid them, and it was so hard seeing them together. It hurt so much. Everything else was wonderful, though: I got to talk with all of my friends, see people I hadn't been around for a while, and the Court ceremony was very nice. Of course I didn't make queen or princess, but what do you expect when Lauren Brown is on Court, too? My default escort was lots of fun, though - we knew we should have made king and queen!
Post-prom at Pooley's wasn't as much fun at first... I was extremely tired, so tired I could barely eat one piece of pizza. After an hour, though, I woke up and started having a blast. Karaoke was so much fun: If I Had a Million Dollars, Lady Marmalade, It's Raining Men, and Siharath rapping to Ice Ice Baby - that was quite hilarious. Really, you've never lived until you've seen Siharath rap.
After post-prom is when we start getting into the things I can't really discuss here, but I can say that I went to Tyler's with our original prom group for a little bit, and then headed to Zoe's to hang out in her hot tub with Maddy and Byron, and then Chaz showed up a little later on. We went to Denny's at 5, and then attempted to sleep all crammed on Zoe's bed. If I slept at all, it was only for half of an hour. My hair was still bobby-pinned up, Chaz found it hard to stay quiet after about an hour, and we were too close to each other to move around and get comfortable enough to sleep. Needless to say, I was extremely tired when we finally got up near noon on Sunday, although I was also extremely happy and only a tad upset that I didn't have something that I wanted so much... I just have to wait for that, though. It hurts, but I know that I'll get it back at some point. From what was said and how comfortable we were to what's been said lately, I know that it won't just fade away. I don't think it ever could.
♥ Rach
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Prom | Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Court | Thursday, May 05, 2005
When I first found this out, I felt kind of... old school girly. I totally was not expecting it, so I wasn't very excited at first. Now, however, I really am happy about it.
I was nominated for Prom Court!
There are about 30 other nominees, however, and those are just the girls. I honestly doubt that I'll make Court, but it's still really nice to be recognized like this. I'm really starting to want to make it on to Court, though. Since they'll be making me dress up for the pep rally next week and sit in the designated area of the bleachers for Prom Court nominees, I really don't want to go through the disappointment (and humiliation) of not being chosen and having to stay at the end of the spec gym... Not chosen... I don't like the idea of that.
But, really, there are 30 other girls! What if I was just one of the add-ons who didn't get many votes at all, but they needed because they wanted more nominees to choose from? I hope it's not that... Everyone who's seen that I made nominees has been really excited for me... But I still don't know anything for sure. Oh well, I guess all I can do is wait and see. We're voting for Court tomorrow... Hopefully it all works out for me.
Now I'm off to do the load of history homework I have tonight. Stupid Franco.
♥ Rach
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I was nominated for Prom Court!
There are about 30 other nominees, however, and those are just the girls. I honestly doubt that I'll make Court, but it's still really nice to be recognized like this. I'm really starting to want to make it on to Court, though. Since they'll be making me dress up for the pep rally next week and sit in the designated area of the bleachers for Prom Court nominees, I really don't want to go through the disappointment (and humiliation) of not being chosen and having to stay at the end of the spec gym... Not chosen... I don't like the idea of that.
But, really, there are 30 other girls! What if I was just one of the add-ons who didn't get many votes at all, but they needed because they wanted more nominees to choose from? I hope it's not that... Everyone who's seen that I made nominees has been really excited for me... But I still don't know anything for sure. Oh well, I guess all I can do is wait and see. We're voting for Court tomorrow... Hopefully it all works out for me.
Now I'm off to do the load of history homework I have tonight. Stupid Franco.
♥ Rach
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Troubled Heart | Monday, May 02, 2005
Wow, haven't been here in a while. I've been pretty busy, and if I didn't have anything to do, I took the time to relax. All I want to do right now is sleep. I don't want to deal with everything that's going on inside me right now, but since I can't sleep yet, I'll vent it all here.
The Cake concert was extremely amazing. Gomez opened for them, and they're now a favorite new band of mine. As for the Cake performance, there are now words. I loved it so much. Besides the excellent entertainment, I was there with some of the best people to hang out with: B, C, and Z. They made the night that much better.
On the way to the concert, B and I got a chance to finally talk. We talked about us, about him and Be, about Br and I, back to us, then to what we had, and finally what I thought it could have been. We never really covered what he thought it could have turned in to, or why he ended it, although I definitely know that he still has feelings for me, and I for him. So many times during the night, we got to the point of almost kissing. We would just be standing there, or sitting, so close, and for a moment we both knew what we wanted, but then someone would turn away or reality would come back. That hurt. It hurt so much seeing the barriers I had finally put up just torn away so easily by a simple glance or touch from B. All I want is to be with him, and to finally be happy again.
This week some guys have "hit on me" in the flirty, uncertain way guys do when they don't want to totally freak you out. I've discovered that Br might have more feelings for me than he's letting on, but I've decided to just ignore that - I have no interest in being anything more than friends with him. Over the weekend I spent some time with a few guys, and I know, if I was only around them more, I'd have fallen for them by now. With a couple of those guys, I might even be able to forget about B, but these relationships are completely impossible, for a number of reasons. Just today, a guy at school who I barely know, but had a great time with during a school trip, told me he'd give me a call later on. All of this is going on, and yet all I can think about is B. I know that I should try again to get over him, find someone else to replace him, take chances to see if I could get lucky enough to find someone better, but I really don't want to. I know that B and I still have something, even if he did leave me for Be, and I honestly feel as if we could have a chance again later on. Maybe it's just a desperate hope that I've turned into something I expect from him, but I hope not.
I was so happy with him, I still feel so much for him, and he still feels, at the very least, something for me - I don't want to lose that.
♥ Rach
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The Cake concert was extremely amazing. Gomez opened for them, and they're now a favorite new band of mine. As for the Cake performance, there are now words. I loved it so much. Besides the excellent entertainment, I was there with some of the best people to hang out with: B, C, and Z. They made the night that much better.
On the way to the concert, B and I got a chance to finally talk. We talked about us, about him and Be, about Br and I, back to us, then to what we had, and finally what I thought it could have been. We never really covered what he thought it could have turned in to, or why he ended it, although I definitely know that he still has feelings for me, and I for him. So many times during the night, we got to the point of almost kissing. We would just be standing there, or sitting, so close, and for a moment we both knew what we wanted, but then someone would turn away or reality would come back. That hurt. It hurt so much seeing the barriers I had finally put up just torn away so easily by a simple glance or touch from B. All I want is to be with him, and to finally be happy again.
This week some guys have "hit on me" in the flirty, uncertain way guys do when they don't want to totally freak you out. I've discovered that Br might have more feelings for me than he's letting on, but I've decided to just ignore that - I have no interest in being anything more than friends with him. Over the weekend I spent some time with a few guys, and I know, if I was only around them more, I'd have fallen for them by now. With a couple of those guys, I might even be able to forget about B, but these relationships are completely impossible, for a number of reasons. Just today, a guy at school who I barely know, but had a great time with during a school trip, told me he'd give me a call later on. All of this is going on, and yet all I can think about is B. I know that I should try again to get over him, find someone else to replace him, take chances to see if I could get lucky enough to find someone better, but I really don't want to. I know that B and I still have something, even if he did leave me for Be, and I honestly feel as if we could have a chance again later on. Maybe it's just a desperate hope that I've turned into something I expect from him, but I hope not.
I was so happy with him, I still feel so much for him, and he still feels, at the very least, something for me - I don't want to lose that.
♥ Rach
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Une Examen | Saturday, April 23, 2005
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Rachel
2. Rach
3. Darken
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. red_gurl[insert some numbers here]
2. raeliz32
3. I think I've only had 2...
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My eyes
2. My musical abilities
3. My hands
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My feet
2. My lack of athleticism
3. My teeth
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Spiders
2. Heights
3. Dying
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Orange juice
2. Chapstick
3. Laughter
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. My sexy jeans
2. A black sweater
3. Comfy white slippers
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Cake
2. Keane
3. The Killers
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Cake - Never There
2. Keane - the entire "Hopes and Fears" album
3. The Killers - Everything Will Be Alright
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT YEAR:
1. Skinny dipping
2. Escargot
3. True sushi
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Devotion
2. Passion
3. Excitement
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. I have eaten fish eggs - and liked it.
2. I'm slightly masochistic.
3. I have survived a day without any sleep the night before.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Eyes
2. Hands
3. Hair
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Plainly show someone outside of the family that they annoy me.
2. Draw.
3. Play any sport well.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Singing
2. Playing Piano
3. Making movies
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Get my bellybutton pierced
2. Finally get my license
3. Find someone better
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Director (as in movies)
2. Editor (again, as in movies)
3. Something with French, though not a teacher
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Europe
2. Africa
3. The rest of the world
THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Aidan
2. Amiond
3. I've never thought of a third name... Perhaps Belle
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. See the world
2. Find true love
3. Make a movie that is shown around the world
THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1. You
2. Your evil twin
3. Your shadow
♥ Rach
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1. Rachel
2. Rach
3. Darken
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. red_gurl[insert some numbers here]
2. raeliz32
3. I think I've only had 2...
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My eyes
2. My musical abilities
3. My hands
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My feet
2. My lack of athleticism
3. My teeth
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Spiders
2. Heights
3. Dying
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Orange juice
2. Chapstick
3. Laughter
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. My sexy jeans
2. A black sweater
3. Comfy white slippers
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Cake
2. Keane
3. The Killers
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Cake - Never There
2. Keane - the entire "Hopes and Fears" album
3. The Killers - Everything Will Be Alright
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT YEAR:
1. Skinny dipping
2. Escargot
3. True sushi
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Devotion
2. Passion
3. Excitement
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. I have eaten fish eggs - and liked it.
2. I'm slightly masochistic.
3. I have survived a day without any sleep the night before.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Eyes
2. Hands
3. Hair
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Plainly show someone outside of the family that they annoy me.
2. Draw.
3. Play any sport well.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Singing
2. Playing Piano
3. Making movies
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Get my bellybutton pierced
2. Finally get my license
3. Find someone better
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Director (as in movies)
2. Editor (again, as in movies)
3. Something with French, though not a teacher
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Europe
2. Africa
3. The rest of the world
THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Aidan
2. Amiond
3. I've never thought of a third name... Perhaps Belle
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. See the world
2. Find true love
3. Make a movie that is shown around the world
THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1. You
2. Your evil twin
3. Your shadow
♥ Rach
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Cake | Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Best. News. Ever.
If you don't know the band Cake, you are seriously missing out.
They're coming to the Orpheum on Wednesday!! Here! And guess who has tickets? Moi!
You have no idea how amazingly incredibly wicked this is. I've loved Cake forever. And I get to go to their only Wisconsin appearance with some of my greatest friends!
You know, I wonder if this is fate's way of making up for the pain it gave me so recently. If it is, I think I would have rather had the relationship than the pain, even if the pain did end up bringing me Cake. Of course, that's all weird Rachel-theory...
Please continue with your everyday lives.
♥ Rach
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If you don't know the band Cake, you are seriously missing out.
They're coming to the Orpheum on Wednesday!! Here! And guess who has tickets? Moi!
You have no idea how amazingly incredibly wicked this is. I've loved Cake forever. And I get to go to their only Wisconsin appearance with some of my greatest friends!
You know, I wonder if this is fate's way of making up for the pain it gave me so recently. If it is, I think I would have rather had the relationship than the pain, even if the pain did end up bringing me Cake. Of course, that's all weird Rachel-theory...
Please continue with your everyday lives.
♥ Rach
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Bring It All Back | Saturday, April 16, 2005
Last night was Julia's party, which was a fun way to spend my only free night this weekend. (Major essay due Monday that I still have to start...) There was pizza with barbecue sauce - the only way to eat pizza, cake, and orange juice for me! Yum. We played poker, made a maze for her hamster to work through, went to the park down the street, and watched most of Reign of Fire before we had to leave.
B and I got lots of chances to talk, which was good for me. The only thing is, he kept bringing up things from the past, such as me still owing him 3 or 4 from the car rides he gave me way back when. (Most of you won't understand that... Sorry.) And then, in front of Br, he'd bring up what he taught me, or what we did together, and then not-really-all-that-discreetly cover it with some phrase like "Oh, I taught her poker."
Why would he be doing this?? Does he think that I'm completely over him and it's okay to bring all of that back? Does he just want to mess with my head? Is he perhaps not completely over me? Doesn't he realize that I don't think I'll never not have feelings for him? And why is he trying to push Br on me? Will it help his guilt if he thinks I'm with someone else? I'm sorry, but Br is not the guy for me, as fun and sweet as he is. I just don't have feelings for him. I honestly think B should realize that, especially considering I fell for him, and he and Br are not exactly the same kind of guys.
God I hate this. I really do want to get over B, but I really think it's impossible now. I just need a guy who can show me that everything can be better than how it was with B, and I don't think Br can do that. Yes, I'll go to prom with him, but just as friends. I don't think he can be the sweet, caring, funny, devoted, and comfortable guy that I need.
I really wish that guy would suddenly appear...
♥ Rach
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B and I got lots of chances to talk, which was good for me. The only thing is, he kept bringing up things from the past, such as me still owing him 3 or 4 from the car rides he gave me way back when. (Most of you won't understand that... Sorry.) And then, in front of Br, he'd bring up what he taught me, or what we did together, and then not-really-all-that-discreetly cover it with some phrase like "Oh, I taught her poker."
Why would he be doing this?? Does he think that I'm completely over him and it's okay to bring all of that back? Does he just want to mess with my head? Is he perhaps not completely over me? Doesn't he realize that I don't think I'll never not have feelings for him? And why is he trying to push Br on me? Will it help his guilt if he thinks I'm with someone else? I'm sorry, but Br is not the guy for me, as fun and sweet as he is. I just don't have feelings for him. I honestly think B should realize that, especially considering I fell for him, and he and Br are not exactly the same kind of guys.
God I hate this. I really do want to get over B, but I really think it's impossible now. I just need a guy who can show me that everything can be better than how it was with B, and I don't think Br can do that. Yes, I'll go to prom with him, but just as friends. I don't think he can be the sweet, caring, funny, devoted, and comfortable guy that I need.
I really wish that guy would suddenly appear...
♥ Rach
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Green Shorts | Sunday, April 10, 2005
Just thought I'd share the outfit I'm currently wearing...
Green shorts, my black, lace-edged tank top, and my big, white, comfy slippers.
So fashionable.
So yesterday was a blast. It started with me taking the ACT (which I was almost late to!). The test seemed to go alright. I'm interested to see what score I'll get. Then when I got home, I ate lunch and took a nap, even though my bestest Laura was there at my mom's Stampin' Up party. She left before I finally woke up after having some crazy dreams, which made me sad - I hardly get to see her much anymore. Then some of my friends stopped by with a movie proposition for me: they want me to act a part in their vampire action movie. It should be interesting, if not fun. They've got the fight scenes choreographed already, characters picked out, and Timm is working on the script. We'll see how it goes.
I ended up hanging with all of them last night, which really was quite fun. I met two new friends, Whit and Kayla, signed Nato's wall, did love fortunes for them, ate more pizza, had a little fun at the Dream Park swinging and looking at the stars, and then rode with Farmer in Driver's trunk over speed bumps. Fun, but I really should have been working on my English load of homework. Now I have half of a book to finish tonight. Lovely.
Nato, I still have your jacket.
♥ Rach
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Green shorts, my black, lace-edged tank top, and my big, white, comfy slippers.
So fashionable.
So yesterday was a blast. It started with me taking the ACT (which I was almost late to!). The test seemed to go alright. I'm interested to see what score I'll get. Then when I got home, I ate lunch and took a nap, even though my bestest Laura was there at my mom's Stampin' Up party. She left before I finally woke up after having some crazy dreams, which made me sad - I hardly get to see her much anymore. Then some of my friends stopped by with a movie proposition for me: they want me to act a part in their vampire action movie. It should be interesting, if not fun. They've got the fight scenes choreographed already, characters picked out, and Timm is working on the script. We'll see how it goes.
I ended up hanging with all of them last night, which really was quite fun. I met two new friends, Whit and Kayla, signed Nato's wall, did love fortunes for them, ate more pizza, had a little fun at the Dream Park swinging and looking at the stars, and then rode with Farmer in Driver's trunk over speed bumps. Fun, but I really should have been working on my English load of homework. Now I have half of a book to finish tonight. Lovely.
Nato, I still have your jacket.
♥ Rach
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